I'm still getting wacky dreams. This weekend I had a dream about labor. It's true, I may be getting a little worried or anxious about labor, especially with the information that we get in our lamaze class and the videos we watch. Last week one of the videos was very intense for me and I think this precipitated my latest dream. We watched all of these women who were in the "pushing" stage of labor and basically just watched them in contractions, moaning, hitting their partners, etc. and then giving birth. Okay, can you say traumatizing. First of all, I have never been to a live birth so seeing these babies coming out was in and of itself frightening. Secondly, to go from one woman to another who is either moaning, screaming, hitting their partner, chanting, etc. with no break for about 30 minutes was almost too much for me. I was near tears through the entire video. Since this class, I've been doing more reading and actually the doulas reassured me of some of the fears I have in general of labor so I'm doing okay with all of the information now, so I thought...then I had this dream:
My dream was about delivering the baby and I was in labor for 34 hours AND the doctors put me under. So I was unconscious throughout the entire labor. When I came to, they handed me my baby and I was convinced it wasn't mine, I mean how did I know that they didn't just give me someone else's baby. I was very upset with the doctors for putting me under as I wanted to experience my labor and see my baby enter the world. It was pretty creepy and that's all I remember of the dream.
When I woke up that morning, I was sharing my dream with Sharon. She didn't seem alarmed by the dream and I emphasized, "they put me under, how do I know that was my baby." She said, "it was our baby, I was right there with you." I said, "how do you know?" And she said, "You were unconscious, I'm just filling in the missing pieces." It was very sweet.
